Life seems to be Groundhog day...too often

I have a holiday. I get back. I go to meetings, some mornings and afternoons and also every week  night, for 2 weeks and I feel ill. Very very ill.

I have a mother that demands and issues ultimatums. I have daily crises from her that need discussions with her or others and an attempt to get her to grasp reality and any consequences. Every simple matter equals a panic and more problems.

I will list those matters........soon. They key one is any Doctor just sees it as an ageing process. They dont see the panics, the reactions, the effects nor the processes that lead up to it or from it.

I am tired so tired. What is my life? Does it have a purpose? I'm an elected member of the Council...and theres so much to do, much to address and so little resource to deal with it. A government that is pre-occupied and fails to grasp major issues...that some of us feel impotent to deal with.......is this life? It certainly typifies the sense of many of us and our hopelessness. No wonder the young feel ostracised and stressed.

I must make changes. They have to be drastic. I need to enjoy the remaining years, not suffer and stress myself out. At least I can see the issues and obstacles..hopefully the solutions too.

But I dont quit!

Thinking........I still need to make my contribution to my community.......but.......how......????

Or do I simply move away?